There are times in many peoples lives when we stop and wonder how we got to this place in our lives. Why things are the way they are and how can we fix them.
Sometimes the world spins so fast, i feel like i can barely see my feet infront of me.
I am 23 this year. It was just yesterday that i arrived in New york; a fresh faced 19 year old with nothing but the world at my fingertips and the dreams of a young woman.
Everything was so simple back then. It was me and only me.
Now as i look back to the time when everything seemed so easy, i feel like the last 2 years have been swallowed up by a giant black hole.
I'm left wondering; Were did the time go?
I know, i've accomplished a lot to the outside eye. I live in beautiful Florida with the man of my dreams and we have a wonderful son.
I have anything and everything i've ever asked for, so why do i feel empty inside?
Marriage isn't an easy road to travel, i know that.
To be married at an early age and be engulfed with serious responsibilities puts an even bigger "hex" on whatever statistic the divorce rate is now.
I'm just tired. I'm tired of feeling like my life is passing me by. Tired of feeling like the person i was or want to be is too far away to hold on to.
I'm tired of getting my hopes up, when i think everything will change.
Most of all i'm tired of asking myself why.
In life we all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unreachable dream and an unforgettable love.”
Lets hope the dream isn't too far out of my reach.
I just wanna be happy.
